TIRED WITH LIFE

My name is BOLUTIFE, Am in SS2. I don't know what to do with my life. I'm seventeen. No "real" friends. I'm all alone in my room every night with my black light on listening to music and wishing someone would talk to me, make me feel like they care for my existence. I'm really stupid I know because school lets me now I am and it reminds me everyday. I don't know what I'm going to do after Senior Secondary School .My Parents have no money for University. The only thing I'm good at is art but that's a useless and risky lifestyle for poor people. My mom told me I need to join the army if I don't start improving my grades. Life is stressful I stress even more when I know I'm going to get stressed over something. Suicide isn't an option for me so I feel so trapped in my room living an endless cycle of nothing. I am Writing Nairaleak hoping to get advice or maybe just a rude awakening someone to tell me that "oh well" or "that's life. Put up with it" because than I'll let go of the little hope and quit being blind and thinking that "it will get better" generic piece I advice.
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